i actually really like shopping guys.

looking at stuff and plotting on clothes i wanna buy while listening to music and feeling like the coolest guy ever is like the BEST thing ever. especially when you're listening to sevendust oh my god I LOVE YOU SEVENDUST

but real talk, its kind of sad how i not only had felt embarrassed but also somewhat ashamed to do this before, and if id ever do it it would be more like a dirty secret rather than something i now more or less take pride in. the shackles of childhood pains run deep, always remember to look inwards guys

speaking of, texting people is so exhausting sometimes, even just the thought of it eats away at my soul no matter how much i like the person. i doubt its related to childhood trauma or whatever but they seem mildly connected it could just be that im still low on energy

also, i might reread all of chainsaw man because i first read it soooo long ago and it was such an experience (i lowkey dont remember it though BUT I DO REMEMBER FEELING STUFF THATS WHAT MATTERS), and then i can review it and have more website content!! helll yeahhhh buddy

along with that, maybe ill add a little section for photos of stuff i take and pics of my cat too. yeah i have a cat. yeah i know ladies, one at a time. if not, then just for my other projects in general since i do still make stuff on scratch js as a creative outlet but i could also link my youtube with my 3d animations(usually short, ngl they each take me like a day with a month in between crying emoji) but we'll see

ALSO ALSO I PUT SO MUCH EFFORT INTO MY BUTTON AND THEN THE DETAIL ISNT VISIBLE??? ARE WE SERIOUS??? AAAHHHHHH ILL MAKE IT BETTER THIS NEXT TIME WATCH AND IT WILL BE TWICE AS COOL WATCH WATCH WATCH

keep self actualizing, love you guys??????? (is there even a guys to refer to yet)

isnt it weird how you can have so much to say but no thoughts at the same time???? i honestly spent like 10 minutes staring at the ceiling trying to think of something to write about, and i thought id have so much to say too

google says i have blank mind syndrome..... thanks google

regardless of, it's tied to derealization and depersonalization, visual snow strikes again!!!

this is visual snow btw, really unknown syndrome and word needs to be spread about it guys, it's literally life-changing(for the worse) and makes me pretty miserable sometimes ngl

since im still sick all ive been doing is working on this website, lowkey feeling anxious about(and dont wanna go back to school) but ill js do it scared when the time comes